Wednesday, August 31, 2011
~ 6:37:00 AM ~
Good morning guys... woke up early planning to study until 2pm then go for the last paper!!! I hope I can concentrate studying :(
I dreamt about you, again... I tried to hold your hand and you told me that... you no longer have feelings for me... I really wish in reality it is the opposite...
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
~ 10:13:00 PM ~
It's another day... of studying... tomorrow's my last exam paper and yet I haven't finish studying!?!?!? I need to chiong le!!! :( but where's my motivation... :( FML ttm... I going off to study le... Seeya...
Flipping through the book again and again, reading the letter again and again...
Monday, August 29, 2011
~ 12:19:00 AM ~
I'm... forgotten so easily... :(
Sunday, August 28, 2011
~ 11:50:00 PM ~
Today, studied whole day at my admiralty house :) It's so peaceful and quiet that I managed to SLEEP while studying! LOL! Haha But managed to study laa :) today is Sunday and it's another plain day for me... After 31st I will be able to relax leeee! Really got a serious of mixed feelings right now... end here bye!
~ 10:57:00 AM ~
I dreamt about us just now... us, being together again... it was unreality but... it felt so real... :(
Saturday, August 27, 2011
~ 11:50:00 PM ~
Now I am at my Admiralty house :) Just ate pizzahut for supper!!! OMG need to work out more le! if not turn into fats! hahaha Today finished 1 chapter of LRIB and I got 4 more(ZZZ) to memorise! argh!!! Tomorrow will be another day of memorising! hope brain got more space to add in more information! ;)Currently listening to (Titanic Theme) My Heart Will Go On - Sungha Jung :) It's very nice! today listened to this song for the whole day while studying!
Praying you will do well in your studies :)
~ 3:36:00 PM ~
I'm trying very hard to memorize my LRIB notes! But nothing goes through and stay put inside!!! I should have gone outside to study and not at home because I will be highly distracted and it's like all my motivation gone! :( Please 31st faster come!!! Listening to music now... it's so nice and smoothing...
You are constantly running through my mind... aren't you tired?
Will you stop playing catching? :(
Thursday, August 25, 2011
~ 7:23:00 AM ~
It's another not so good morning but... I wanted to post then slack until 8am then start studying... Guess today's not a good day again after all... Oh btw I had my dream just now!? Actually suppose to wake up at 5.40am but... before I woke up I dreamt about don't know who ask me to wait by sitting at a bench or something then I woke up I told myself I need to wait in the dream then I went back to sleep LOL! I think its a excuse for myself to wake up later! Haha! Today's paper... hopefully it's an easy paper...
Sunday, August 21, 2011
~ 12:18:00 PM ~
Yo! I think from the start of today I only will post what I dream of and this blog will become my dreams journal! Yesterday I had 3 dreams and 1st one was about I went for my Aikido training and suddenly it became a art and craft lesson!? The teacher was my PTN for this year and I saw my classmates in my dream!? LOL Weird dream... 2nd dream was about my family... but I forgotten where I go le in the dream le..3rd dream was about you :) quite a good night because I dream of people whom I care a lot :)
Today, I dream about a close friend... and some secondary school friends... We(me and him) went to chalet, and there is a bunch of naughty kids living at 1st floor trying to taunt us but I don't know why we don't want to bash them up lol what they said was quite hurtful but we both just tolerated them lol and secondary friends appeared then I don't know what happen le.. Lol find weird writing out dreams post because it doesn't make any sense... Perhaps someone blog walking can interpret my dreams haha
Thursday, August 18, 2011
~ 12:17:00 AM ~
I'm lying on my bed now... cannot sleep... something is troubling me...
To you:I am very sorry to cause hurt to you :(
I really want to let you know the real cause of the problem, I'm not taking the blame or whatever, but just listen to me with a calm mind... The problem that I need to solve myself is that I need to have self-esteem and self-confidence in myself. 1 year and 4 months back... when you accepted me as your boyfriend... I was really confused and I cannot believe that I have a girlfriend... because in the past I have low self-confidence, afraid of whatever I do. And when you were in poly you have a lot of male friends... it's not actually the male friends I hate... Its because I feel inferior and I keep thinking I will not treat you better than they do... I'm afraid that your male friends treat you better and I do not and feel like a loser... that's why I'm very controlling and protective when you talk or hang out with them... :( It's only after we broke up then I really find out why I'm so protective...I tell myself that I need to have better self-confidence after this.. I hope you understand that you should not take the blame all yourself.
In process of being a more confident guy :)
:)
Monday, August 15, 2011
~ 7:15:00 PM ~
2nd day of studying... damn unproductive... i'm quite tired and went back home early and sleep and now semi conscious don't know want study maaa update more later..
Edited: Yes... tomorrow I continue my NAFTA!!!! Today only completed 1/2 goal... ahhh siannn going to sleep soon! haha
Sunday, August 14, 2011
~ 11:25:00 PM ~
Today I finished memorising 2 out of 17 GBE lecture notes!!! wohooo!!! first day's achievement reached! :) I'm happy! and I'm more happy because I'm gonna focus on gaining more self-confidence! :) Tomorrow I will finish 3 more lecture notes!! hahaha wish me luck! and with my SECRET weapon I'm sure I'm gonna Ace GBE! :D Hope you are doing great at your home studying! :) JYJY! haha I HAVE CONFIDENCEEEEEEE!
~ 9:15:00 AM ~
Today is a good day! :D I'm going to start studying my GBE after I shower and I'm still deciding whether to study at home or study at RP... Hmm... because I am highly distracted at home but if I go RP now is very early and very scary... cos nobody there.. Ah finally 80% recovered my biceps le tomorrow CHIONG again! hahaha lol Gonna start studying GBE from the latest chapters cos most of the essay questions will be regarding the last few chapters! :( Can't bear to stop thinking and start mugging and I guess let nature takes its course for now and start studying baa! :) I hope you can study well and get As for your exams! :)
~ 12:38:00 AM ~
Yo! Just came back from meeting Jie Cheng :) Went all the way to Pasir Ris! hahaha anyway also don't want stay at home jiu go out walk walk :)Sorry Jie Cheng I needed to go back home if not Ah Ma worry :( I took out the hand-made jar of cute hearts made by Audrey and re-arrange the layers because the layers some messed up :( I'm trying hard to make it back nice nice! hahaha! :) next time post some pictures of the jar of cute hearts! :D Totally love it! XD Hmm Today actually want study de but no motivation lehhh so rot the WHOLE dayyyy and I'm going to stop blogging HERE because I want to re-arrange the hearts NICELY!
Friday, August 12, 2011
~ 8:38:00 PM ~
Hi guys, I'm back to blogging :) It has been a long time since I never blog already... :( Time really flies... and something struck me and I got the feeling to pen down my thoughts on a blog again.. the new and first post should be a lively one but this is not... It's because I really missed her... miss her presence, miss her scent, miss her everything... I realised I am constantly avoiding reality and not face the fact.... I know we can work this out together!
I feel that I have a serious problem here... that is low self-confidence... I need more self-confidence!!!!
